The following is a transcription from my YouTube Video Welcome.
Today I’d like to share with you three things that I wish I knew when I was 20 years old.
So the first thing is believe in yourself. I used to believe in myself too much in more of an egotistic manner because I was afraid no one else would believe in me. So I tried to create a false belief so they’d believe in me so that I could believe in myself. But I’ve learned through the years that I have to believe in myself and my power to create what I want and not give that power to others. Because if I give that power to others, then I feel less empowered to create the things that I see true that they don’t believe in, which sounds like a pretty vicious cycle. Anyways, in my opinion, my belief system from what I’ve learned, believe in yourself first and empower yourself. Because you have to believe in the vision for somebody else to believe in it, regardless whether they believe in it or not.
So the second thing that I wish I knew when I was 20 was to love myself first. Again, the same with the belief system. I guess there’s an ongoing theme with myself anyways, that in order to love myself, I would create a false image of love and feed my ego so that others would love me and I could give my love through them. When in reality, all I had to do was look inside to find my own self love, which is something that I’m still working on. Especially because in building of this ego, I made everything okay. I gave myself self false empowerment. And in doing so, I didn’t have real love for myself. But yet I didn’t see that. I was like, yeah, I’m okay. It’s all good. And it is all good. Don’t get me wrong. But you have to believe in yourself. You have to love yourself. Your inner child, every aspect of you, even if you don’t like it, you still have to love it, integrate it, and improve on it. So absolutely to love myself.
And the third and final thing that I wish I knew when I was 20 was to stop trying to fix others. I want to help others. And then I found myself trying to help them and actually annoying them because they weren’t ready for my help. But also in wanting to help them, I saw them as broken, needing fixed, and I wanted to help fix them. When in reality, they’re on their own path. I don’t know what their path is. That’s for them to figure out. All I can do is be a mirror to help reflect so that they can figure out that path. And also I can set an example of belief in myself, of loving myself, and in trying to improve myself while feeling that I’m okay right where I’m at. But it’s a growth that I want.
And so if I do this, others can see this. And if they are attracted to, or if they want to, or if they feel the need or are drawn to growth, then through my example, they can grow. And that’s how they would, quote unquote, fix themselves in my old eyes. So definitely stop giving energy away to others. Be that example. Put that energy into yourself and be that example. Be that leader, that thought leader, that spiritual leader. And then when they’re so inclined, if they’re so inclined, if it’s in their path, and maybe they’re not ready for it, maybe when you lead by example, they see something in themselves. And then later on, they look back and go, Oh, okay, that makes sense. Because you give them that example. And from there, they can grow.
So that concludes this video. I appreciate your time and your love and your patience, because I’m pretty new at this, obviously. And this is my first video, but I just wanted to share with you three things that I wished I had known when I was 20 on my path. However, with that said, though, I worked really hard to never regret anything because regret is putting energy in the past me. And I’d rather have that energy now. And what I have done in the past, I’ve learned from and everything’s been okay. I’ve always been okay. Eventually, sometimes, but I’ve always been okay. I am okay. And I’ll always be okay.
