Had a wonderful day of being okay with where I was at and feeling my power. Did my meditation this morning and it was a guided meditation for connecting to my spirit guides. I didn’t feel the need for journaling because I was able to communicate with one of my guides and I can’t for the life of me remember what the short conversation was. Perhaps I should have taken notes afterwards but, I felt at such peace from it and that’s the important take away.
Later in the day I was still feeling rough energetically so after allowing myself the afternoon of relaxing I decided to have another connection to my spirit guides. Using a different meditation I found myself, via the guided meditation, talking to several spirit guides while getting to my main guide. The funny thing is after opening the last door to meet the final guide in my meditation I saw a raccoon. Then the meditation told me to see my final guide and gave some more prompts.
After this meeting was concluded it said “now look around and notice if you see anything else like maybe an animal then take a note of this for guidance”. The odd things is I saw the raccoon before I was prompted and raccoons were my mom’s favorite animal. This really felt like my mom’s spirit when I saw it and I gave it a hug before I left. If you couldn’t tell from the sincerity of the meeting of the raccoon my mom is passed from this life.
It’s been over 14 years but I think of her often so this was really comforting. Especially since my mom was my main abuser from childhood. She was severely abused so I never held it against my mom. However, tackling my shadow work has required me to confront this abuse like I never have before. Healing not so much the relationship with my mom but with my inner child that received the abuse. I healed the version of myself that kept me playing small, fearing attention, feeling worthy, and a slew of other limitations.
I also listened to some videos in my feed. Strangely the first was about shaman sickness and second about signs I was becoming a Shaman. Then, a pick a card tarot reading mentioned that I was stepping into my power as a shaman or had a shaman as a guide coming in.
I have felt from time to time that stepping into this body that is half Columbian helped me anchor into my Shamanic roots through my ancestry. I have not necessarily done anything cool or magical but I have felt this connection through my feelings, things I’m drawn to, and my understanding of how things or people work so to speak.
That brings me to my last thing today. Really seeing that I can feel my power and my light. I can feel my greatness and it’s okay. I have never intentionally saw anyone as less or put them beneath me in my mind. All these fears of being me and being my fullest were weren’t true. Fears I would become arrogant or hurt others by taking advantage of them, they were never me. They were others programming that I became a victim to around power and wealth. Wow, I guess I got carried away 😜 goodnight or good morning everyone. Choose a great weekend! In love and light!
(In love and light, you are love and light, through your love and through your light. These are repeated a lot when I channel journal or when I mentally connect to my guides. I am really making this my main mantra until the next major theme they give me)
